When you first come to the festival you cannot dispose the feeling that you are lost. Complete chaos is everywhere. You do not know what to do, from where to start etc. This feeling can be described nearly as Paul`s from Scorsese`s After Hours when he cannot escape the district of Soho which has gone mad. This is especially true when you are experiencing the festival called the Black Nights in Tallinn, Estonia. This happened to me when I came to Nisimazine film criticism workshop during this festival. _ _

Imagine the feeling, when you have a huge festival catalogue lying on the table in front of you. It is full of possibilities. Full of possible lives like in Mr. Nobody (2009) for the nine year-old boy who is standing in the platform and choosing between two of his parents. _ _

You are opening the catalogue. Black Nights is offering its help for you to find yourself during dozens of programs and special events which sometimes have some strange names like PÖFF`s Vitamin Boost and 60 Seconds of Solitude in the Year Zero. Likewise, there are hundreds of movies. You still do not know much about the program, so in your head movies still are some kind of pure chaotic unrestrained liquid. Dive into it! Remember, it is the jumping-off point of the narrative. Losing yourself is the beginning of finding yourself. _ _

By Jorė Janavičiūtė